“Mom, it’s kind of hard, when I’m helping the younger kids, and you hug me in church,” said my 9 year old son. I replied, “It’s ok, you don’t have to hug me back”. Then came the daggers to my heart. “Well, actually, it’s kind of embarrassing.” Noooooooo, I knew this day would come. I will certainly comply with his wishes, and not hug him at school, but I am sad about it. I’m sad that my expression of love, has negative entanglements for him.
When we eat at home, we pray, and being Catholic, make the sign of the cross. When we go out to eat, we do the same, but there is an element of feeling a little awkward about it sometimes. Our server has come to the table, while we are praying, and although they have always been respectful, at times, they get uncomfortable and don’t know what to do. Is this uneasiness what my son feels at school?
Do I get uncomfortable expressing my Love for God, when I pray in public? Does my Father feel that tiny sting that I felt from my son’s remarks. There is absolutely nothing wrong with discreetly praying a blessing at mealtime in public, so why my feeling of uneasiness? I have a pretty good idea, where it comes from. I think its time that I dismiss it.